sábado, 22 de dezembro de 2012

The English Course

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It’s very confuse to write about that for me, because it evolves many feelings and life stuff than you could imagine. But I will start from the beginning.


About 2 years later, my friend Leticia told me she was going to do some English course in the neighbor city, the school Wizard. I didn’t even know there was an English School there or any like this. So she started every Saturday in the morning going there and every time I could see her, she started telling me things that happened in the class. It was very fun and funny, I laughed with her. So she proposed me the follow: “Why don’t you come in the class with me?” but it was almost 2 months she started the classes, but I thought about it. I spoke to my mother and my father, not about money, but about a decision of life, because I’m very a complicated person to decisions. But I still didn’t know I was going to make the decision of my life. I wanted to go in, but I decided no. So I spoke to her again and she told me the good opportunities it could open to me. So I decided to go a day (2nd August 2010). I went to know about allowance and stuffs, but the secretary told me to watch a class with my friend only to see how it was and If I would like it, then I just sit down and paid attention. So I decided to go in, because I liked the class but I would have to make some reposition class to reach the lesson they were that I missed in 2 months. The woman that gave me the reposition class, told me I was the best first student to do reposition class with her, because I was very good. I remember she telling about me to the teacher: “Jonas, you have no idea. She is very, very good! A great student, she already knows some things.” And I remember getting so much happy. 


After some months and during, some friends of the class came on and then came out, and I learned a lot. I mean learned, yes. My teacher was so experienced, he lived in England for 2 years,  he is the owner of Wizard, he knows many many many information about abroad that you couldn’t imagine, he’s an ambulant dictionary. What you ask or have a doubt, he can answer you.  We laughed A LOT in his classes, we made launches, we made bets, we  learned about everything, it didn’t seem like a course to study, but anyways you’re paying and you learn if you want, and he did it happen, as I’m writing that without dictionary online because my internet is not on and either a book one. But there was a day, I came to the course after July vacations and a stranger boy was sit in the table too, (yes, we used to make different classes in the library), and the only thing I could hear Jonas saying was: “Guys, this is Rafael, and he will be you teacher from here ahead”. It was so insane I thought it was only for a day. But my heart and my brain were in pain, so I asked him: “Are you going to be our teacher only for this Saturday or the entire life?” (Yes, I said life.) and he answered: “Entire life. Why? Do you see some problem?” and I answered back: “No no.” Man, I felt like I would cry in the moment, but it was stuck in my chest. Can you imagine, my teenager, the discover age, the only thing that motivated me to keep going to class (because I had substitution classes and the others were absolutely terrible) happy, and enjoy the all week and see that I was better in English than my high school teacher, and feel proud of myself, discovering new places, new habits, new accents, like people talk in Scotland, England, Manhattan or in Netherlands. I was dead. So my friend who said to get in the class with her came out of the course. And I used to take a drive with her every Saturday, that’s one of the reasons I got in. But I kept going to the class, only 3 students, my adorable Rodrigo, 28, and Gabriel, 14. And the new teacher, 20. Jonas was 30, I met him with 28 and he was the all I could find in the world. I mean I’m not in love with him in fiction, but I’m in love with his intelligence, his knowledge, his personality and all he got in life. He is my inspiration, he is all I’m today, he is everything I could wish for my growing up. I’m the most thankful people in the world for have an amazing teenage, because I had the pleasure to meet him like no other could do.  I wish the new course he started (Law, he got it in 2nd in all the university), he will make it wonderfully like he did in his English career. I’m still there waiting to see him, nervous, like every Saturday I used to be, and hug him any time again like the last and say I missed him. I’m still missing though and I hope someday he can give me classes again, he made my way to life and opened my mind and eyes, and that’s enough he could do while he was there, and I can’t complain. So that’s my English story, I’m mad about the language whatever be the trouble or wall to go through and I will keep in love with traveling, always looking for new advantages for new experiences to live for like I did in the last 1 and a half year. The most important time of my life. Thanks Wizard and thanks Jonas, you and Wizard made me.

Liza.

sexta-feira, 7 de dezembro de 2012

Eu Posso Sentir

Eu posso sentir o efeito correndo no meu corpo.
Um silêncio evolve todo meu interior apenas mantendo o ciclo laico.
Percebí o ocorrido externo e fiquei pensando o porquê de estar ocorrendo,
mas a biologia não deixa de agir.
Simplesmente preenche, simplesmente te vive.

 

sábado, 1 de dezembro de 2012

E se eu...


- E se eu tivesse feito tudo diferente?
Como estaria o hoje?
É uma curiosidade absurda que nos consome saber como estaria nossa vida se tivéssemos feito diferentes escolhas.
O sentimento construído até hoje nos deixa rastros de que tudo foi certo. 
E se houvesse um melhor?
Tudo como uma experiência nos posiciona em um extinto console de entendimento.
Em nossas mentes vidas passam, tempos correm, principalmente a nossa.

Consumido o direito seu de abrir. Extraviando todo seu eu em um único choque de nada.
Te diminui a cada passo, mas só no outro pensamento.
Ao se ver em uma linha tênue se revitaliza, o beijo da morte puxa.
Injusto até embaixo de luzes foscas.
Mas é necessário para o micróbio não se proliferar.
Deu.

Atmosfera límpida, ouvidos palpitando.
Sair de uma sala com ar condicionado para o bafo do mundo.
Talvez acabe pelo contrário.
Outro mega  te cobre, te estabiliza.
Pensar ao menos que horas são se torna mágica.

Na sua cabeça...
E se...